I Try to Act All
Grown-up
It was difficult to
concentrate on work after what had happened on Sunday, especially when work
itself was boring. I was distracted and made little progress. Thankfully the
project deadline wasn’t for some time, and I was working alone, so I could
afford to slack off if I made up for it later.
I kept thinking about that
kiss with Raghav, trying to decipher what it meant. Trying to decipher my
feelings, and his.
“He seems so infatuated
with Sonali,” wailed Mandakini. “Yet right afterwards he says he wants to be
with me! What does it mean?”
“What do I feel
towards him?” asked Miki. “Why did it feel so nice to kiss him? If I am not in
love with him, why am I attracted to him?”
“Maybe you are in
love with him,” said Mandakini.
“No, I don’t think that’s
true.”
“Come on, Raghav is your
best friend, you like him better than anyone in the world. You are attracted to
him. What more do you want?”
“I don’t know. But somehow…
it doesn’t feel right. And I don’t want to make a move unless I’m absolutely sure…
Maybe I’ll just wait and see how it goes.”
“If you wait too long,
that girl will take him,” said Mandakini.
“But if he goes to her, that
means he never really loved me.”
And sooner than I had
expected, Raghav proved Miki right.