I'm alone, and lonely, and missing the Guy terribly. To keep myself from being sad, I'm doing something that has worked before: going over some of the things in my life that are awesome.
Friends. Of course. To be honest, I look around myself (metaphorically) with some surprise. I have more friends now than I ever did since college (when my idea of boundaries was less formed). I know so many awesome people. And apart from real life friends, whom I've written about before, there are friends I met through the blog, like the Mad Momma, who's done so much over the last year to encourage me as a writer. Like Dipali, who has a cheerful, encouraging comment to nearly every blog and Facebook post that I like. And all the rest of you who read and comment. Thank you all.
My job. I had a Gmail status up some time ago: "in lust with my job", and Veeru pinged to say that a job's not worth lusting after. Wrong. It totally is. It's the best thing I've ever lusted after apart from the Guy. And my boss is the awesomest boss in the whole world. (That was my status too recently, and Suki challenged me on it. It didn't take me long to convince her.) Even when I'm ill or tired or sad, the job isn't a burden but something to look forward to, something that will make me feel better.
The Guy. Need I say it? He teases me when I tell him I find some guy attractive, or that I've had an inappropriate dream. He laughs when I start my conversation every workday with "You know how awesome my job is?" and settles down to listen to me. Well, I could go on and on. But the best part is, after a few more weeks of separation, he'll be back home for good. And while I should be sorry at how that great new opportunity didn't pan out... I'm too selfish to be. I am just so glad he'll be with me again. And - we have been together nearly five years now. FIVE years. And each year has been better than the last.
And the best news I've heard since the Guy told me he was coming back: the Blade and LC are getting married before the year ends. Two of my favourite people getting together. I've been a witness in much of their journey so far, and am incredibly excited that I'll get to witness this. Plus, the wedding's in a town neither the Guy nor I have visited before, and it should be a fun trip.